rainbow flag / sketchy one night stand / health problem / weight of life, etc…

Gay life is often reduced to symbols and clichés: the rainbow flag, nightlife, freedom, excess. Beneath these images lies a fragile reality shaped by desire, loneliness, and the constant negotiation with one’s own body.

The starting point was my recent experience of going through PEP (Post-Exposure Prophylaxis) treatment. One stupid hookup put me in one month of taking pills two times a day and a huge medical bill. Ouch.

The work explores how intimacy, pleasure, and danger coexist, and how the weight of life often arrives after the moment of climax—when one is left alone with their body and its vulnerability.

In a fast-paced city, bodies move without attention or care. Within this indifferent flow, two individuals meet. They step into a dark, intimate space, where desire takes over and time slows. Their bodies tangle passionately, driven by impulse rather than consequence.

One leaves. The other remains alone, clinging to the warmth of what just happened. This solitude turns into an intense solo, building toward release and collapse. The fall raises uncertainty: exhaustion, illness, or death.

The one left returns. He attempt to revive the sick but the effort fails. Someone from the crowd come to help the desperate situation, and the sick recoveres, and they walk together sharing the weight of life.

The two musicians are present on stage creating scenes. At first, they are pedestrians and observers within the city—witnesses to movement, indifference, and flow. Then the contrabass player becomes the architecture of the scene, shaping the jazz atmosphere and holding the dancers inside a dense, nocturnal interior. In the final scene, the sound musician intervenes more aggressively, using unconventional instruments and textures to disturb the space. This shift alters the emotional and physical dynamics, amplifying the sense of crisis, instability, and desperation surrounding the sick body and suggests hope of help from strangers in the cold city.

Dancer: Denis Barwa & Kazu
Cello: Simon Wohlgemuth
Sound: Reika Hattori

Performed at Spedition e.V.